A Fool's Recital

Was I just a party trick?
An echo in the wind?
Erased by a finger flick.
My feelings were my sin.

I fed on the hope
that I was the one.
I walked on a rope -
my walk is now done.

I won't say you're cruel -
we are what we are,
I'll just stay the fool
that looks from afar.

But was it just fate,
Do you think it's fair?
Or is it my fault?
Do you even care?

Was I just blind?
or maybe insane?
Will you remember,
that I was there?

Will you shed a tear?
Will there be a hole,
where I used to be,
inside of your soul?

Was it all nothing,
a void that just grows?
was I ever something,
but food for the crows?

There's too many things
I don't understand.
My voice wants to sing,
but my heart wants to end.

But was it just fate,
Do you think it's fair?
Or is it my fault?
Do you even care?

Was I just blind?
or maybe insane?
Will you remember,
that I was there?

There's too many things
I can't understand.
My voice wants to sing
but my heart wants to end.

I wanted too much,
But I should have known,
It's pointless to touch
a girl made of stone.

This poisonous bliss,
I felt in my bones,
how it hurts to kiss
a girl veiled in thorns.